R-E-S-P-E-C-T

Who do you respect? I have so much for two awesome girls in my life. One has taken it to the "man," and is kicking ass at it. The other has up and moved across the country, with her heart on her sleeve. To both of you: you rock my world! I am so happy to be a part of your lives!

Its women like this that make us take a step back and evaluate ourselves...ask one big, tough question - would I be able to do what they are doing if faced with the same circumstances? I can only hope I would be able to.

To bask in the shade of these two giants - ordinary women who are completely extraordinary - is a privilege all in of itself. Thanks ladies. I adore you both!

Old find, new finds; red find, blue finds

Once in a while...well, more than that...I get these songs in my head that are old, of a specific "me" genre, and I NEED to have them...and in recent cases, I've gone ahead and spent some dough and purchased them online - but not just the song, the whole album that its on. I've found so many new songs that I like - its so refreshing! A lot of times, I like the new finds more than the old one - but the old one will always remain a classic!

India is becoming much the same. The more I discover, the more I like. The first 6 months were difficult, but I learned to like it. Now I feel I'm moving past that - I understand the basic melody here, and can respect and begin to really fall in love with the other tunes on this huge sub-continent.

This is such a good feeling!

ps-song for inspiration: Marcy Playground: Sex and Candy - I haven't heard it since I was 15, riding the school bus home, with Jill Bonneson and Carrie Ott in the back of the bus - I missed the song, but not those days - how we grow!

And the bottom drops out...

Actually, it hasn't yet, but I'm waiting for it to!

Good things keep happening...I'm just waiting for when that will stop...typical me!

Knock on wood (if you're in the US), Touch wood (if you're in India).

What has been good?

1. El Apartmento - Its new! I am now a TON closer to work, I can take rickshaws and feel like I am not being isolated from India, its bigger, cheaper, cleaner and nicer - we have a bar! There are 5 balconies, 3 bedrooms, and its in a block of townhouses - which means its WAY cooler without too much sun! barley (my puppy) loves it, and he can't loose his ball, as we don't have any furniture in the living area where he stays, he's learning to go up and down stairs (a new thing for him - before he was too little!) because the apartment is 2 floors. basically, we feel like we're living like queens - oh, and did I mention the A/C in the bedrooms and less power cuts? FREAKING AWESOME!!!

2. Clarali is coming tomorrow! I can't wait! I'm sure she's going to love India, as I am through that crappy stage and can be a proper host - especially with the new apartment!!!

3. I finally ended a relationship on a happy note. Yea-didn't think it was possible, but I guess that's part of growing up and learning how to really handle things. I know I shouldn't be celebrating this break up, because Mr. Zimbabwe is a really awesome guy, but the fact that we're going to remain friends really makes me happy! And I feel like its exactly what we are supposed to be - nothing less, nothing more. (Oh, and I found your gift - you'll have to come to the new apt to claim it! Its hilarious, you'll love it!)

4. work is starting to really take off - Ben is going to be hired, if he doesn't bomb his interview with me - which I have total faith he will not - which means I can finally focus my energies on doing the work to achieve the big picture. Events are UBER important - and is our core selling point right now - but things need to start getting bigger, better, and the only way to do that is to delegate - and bring someone on board that I can delegate to! Woo Hoo!

5. My computer is fixed - finally! YIPPIE! No, more than yippie, HECK YES! After a month without a proper computer, its good to have it back! A big thank you to Pauley for giving me the CD that saved my life! I owe you one huge back rub the next time I get to the states!

6. I'm happy, in general - its been a while, but I am! I am so excited to be here in India, doing what I'm doing, and kickin ass at it...well, we'll see if I'm kickin ass at it...

Hope everyone has weeks like this!

And tomorrow go back to being friends...

Say goodbye - DMB

So here we are tonight
You and me together
The storm outside, the fire is bright
And in your eyes I see
What's on my mind
You've got me wild
Turned around inside
And then desire, see, is creeping
Up heavy inside here
And know you feel the same way
I do now
Now let's make this an evening
Lovers for a night, lovers for tonight
Stay here with me, love, tonight
Just for an evening
When we make
Our passion pictures
You and me twist up
Secret creatures
And we'll stay here
Tomorrow go back to being friends

Go back to being friends
But tonight let's be lovers,
We kiss and sweat
We'll turn this better thing
To the best
Of all we can offer, Just a rogue kiss
Tangled tongues and lips,
See me this way
I'm turning and turning for you
Girl just tonight

Float away here with me
An evening just wait and see
But tomorrow go back to your man
I'm back to my world
And we're back to being friends
Wait and see me,
Tonight let's do this thing
All we are is wasting hours until the sun comes up it's all ours
On our way here
Tomorrow go back to being friends

Go back to being friends
Tonight let's be lovers, say you will
And hear me call, soft-spoken whispering love
A thing or two I have to say here
Tonight let's go all the way then
Love I'll see you,
Just for this evening
Let's strip down, trip out at this
One evening starts with a kiss
Run away

And tomorrow
back to being friends
Lovers...love...lovers
Just for tonight, one night...love you
And tomorrow say goodbye

*end

Guess 6 weeks (3 of them being away) is all I can handle of a relationship...typical me. But not so typical - I ended this one on a happy note! That's a first!

"We don't look back in anger, I heard you say"

I am realizing more and more by the day, just how lucky I am...to have had the experiences I have, and to be given such enormous opportunity and to be so well supported.

Sometimes it got/gets frusturating. I'm learning that that's part of life (and just what the phrase "that's part of life" really means - how deep it goes and what the real implications are for me).

I am even thankful for these frusturating times. They have helped me to grow in ways that I would have never thought possible. And that makes me so happy for the future.

Its funny how easy it is to get sucked back into politics...and I guess the drunk me was pretty good at that this weekend. But overall, I am uninterested. I want to get some work done...get something real accomplished. Let's build, who's with me? I want to give real responsibility to young people that have their hearts set on building a network that can and will make a real - and real big - impact on society. Come work with me. This movement needs the passionate, questioning minds of the future.

I need you. The world needs you.

We need you - not to argue or force power plays or to continue to hold grudges - but to do the right thing, to build ethically and morally, something that is transparent and able to change the world.

All I need to know about what not to do I've learned along the way. That gives me hope - that I can still learn how to do this stuff - that I can still be a successful leader.

Who's with me?

Music madness

I just noticed that the titles of my last 6 posts are song titles and/or lyrics.

And I just went up on the awesomeness meter in my own head.