Sittin on the doc of the bay
Being in San Francisco has been a great experience thus far...
...Aaron's California hospitality (which I have yet to see matched in the US)
...the beauty of the SF Bay and the golden gate bridge
...having the experience of putting my feet in the atlantic on wednesday, and the pacific on sunday
...and having time to think and appreciate things!
That's one thing I've noticed...the thinking time. I haven't had time like this since Paris...real, quality time with myself. One thing I've noticed is that if I have an easy time telling you how I feel about you, or that you did a great job, or something nice in general, I probably don't mean it. Its when I fumble with my words and try to find the right ones to express just how much I appreciate you or what you've done that I mean what I say...wierd but true. Another thing I've noticed in this self-exploration is that I really do value my family, and having a family in general. The alum that I'm staying with in SF has his own bachelor pad and plays host to the travelers who go to-and-fro this city, but does he have any real, solid connections??? idk. It'd be wierd to think that I could be 40 with no husband, no kids, and only a job to keep me going every day...kind of lonly. I used to think that' what I wanted. Now I see it, and I freak out! Almost more so than the thought of marriage. for those of you that know me fairly well, you'll know how freaky that statement is!
All in all, its been great...the intense times are to come, as I'm just working right now, but have to schmooze later on in the week and be on my game with work stuff...crazy! But if I don't get to it all, its chill...WOAH...this city really is wearing off on me!!!
...Aaron's California hospitality (which I have yet to see matched in the US)
...the beauty of the SF Bay and the golden gate bridge
...having the experience of putting my feet in the atlantic on wednesday, and the pacific on sunday
...and having time to think and appreciate things!
That's one thing I've noticed...the thinking time. I haven't had time like this since Paris...real, quality time with myself. One thing I've noticed is that if I have an easy time telling you how I feel about you, or that you did a great job, or something nice in general, I probably don't mean it. Its when I fumble with my words and try to find the right ones to express just how much I appreciate you or what you've done that I mean what I say...wierd but true. Another thing I've noticed in this self-exploration is that I really do value my family, and having a family in general. The alum that I'm staying with in SF has his own bachelor pad and plays host to the travelers who go to-and-fro this city, but does he have any real, solid connections??? idk. It'd be wierd to think that I could be 40 with no husband, no kids, and only a job to keep me going every day...kind of lonly. I used to think that' what I wanted. Now I see it, and I freak out! Almost more so than the thought of marriage. for those of you that know me fairly well, you'll know how freaky that statement is!
All in all, its been great...the intense times are to come, as I'm just working right now, but have to schmooze later on in the week and be on my game with work stuff...crazy! But if I don't get to it all, its chill...WOAH...this city really is wearing off on me!!!
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